dont let me down

so many things i will never understand
so sit down, shut up, play dead
i’ll only see what i want to see
and know what i want to know
everything else will be oblivion

26/6

updates. (this is me trying to act as if people are following my wordpress, just let me pretend okay)

life is good. still unemployed. not really giving a fuck about getting a job anymore.
i’ll just play the spoilt child and let daddy pay for school.
trying to live the minimal-spending life.
eating cheap and not buying cigarettes to jam 3-4 times a week.
trying to keep myself occupied, hasn’t been boring at all.
because i don’t get bored by myself anymore.
few upcoming shows.
3rd july in hyss, 11th july at f.a.d media and 25th july at odiocrib.
mfoa were supposed to play j.b. on 5th july.
but joe has work (so not pUnX l0rx)
working on 3 more new reckless landing songs.
working really hard to try and release something soon.
hamloid records is the best label in the world.
thats about it, i’ll try to write something here at least every week or fortnight.
just to keep myself on track (yeah, myself, fuck you).

ps. ramen cup noodles are awesome and really cheap, put them in microwaves for about 30 seconds and your life will almost be complete.
and praise mike tyson for bus rides and the singtel student plan.

cant really think of a simple yet dense and ‘artsy fartsy’ title right now to make a bunch of random words look like a piece of cheap, disguised art

what if you could make the sky fall by closing your eyes and thinking that it would?
you could and might think that it would work that way
but i don’t think it would work that way
i’ll try it someday when im free
please let me know if you’ve tried it and if it works cos i would love to watch the sky fall
and start a new religion with chicken little as god

giving up is moving on

we will always be alone
and we will always die alone
because friends would save themselves first
and lovers would die before you do
dont waste your time trying
to align everyone’s hearts
because when you’re on your last breath
everyone else would only rather it be you than them

its not wrong, its the the way things go.

between these lines

my middle finger still means what it means
fuck you, fuck everything
i’ll spent the rest of my life laying down on the fields
staring up at the skies, talking to the stars
i don’t need anyone to lay beside me
i’ll do what makes me happy

fuck art and the value and judgment of image
lets destroy everything

3/5

last friday, we had a secret show at odiocrib as a surprise for feroze’s birthday. something that we’ve been planning for weeks. small show, friends invited only. but it was pretty fun, other than the fact that for half of the show, half of the people were sitting outside… -.- but the best part was its a COSTUME PARTY! which is the funniest thing ever. hakim was as a bangaladeshi gardener, mel was as a fucking ugly transvestite, shaz was a muai thai warrior, fareed was an indian in pajamas and mickey mouse slippers azri was a black metal poseur, farhan was a woodlands wellington soccer player, azhari was a business man and yaz was an army guy, well, he still is. my band dressed up power rangers. i was the islam sxe ranger, brian was paulie ranger (you’d know who paulie is if you watched the movie ‘juno’), sham was chij ranger and lihao was a person with a green mask. photos were the funniest thing ever.

sxe or I KILL U!

who wants to stand beside mel

FUNNIEST PHOTO EVER. TRANSVESTITE TAG TEAMING WITH MUAI THAI.

i have no idea lol

the tudung sibeh panas

birthday boy

LOOK AT HAKIM’S FACE (FAT GUY)

XHARDXCOREX HAHA

self-righteous

we are flawed,
the only difference is, whether we acknowledge that or not
some of us do, some of us aren’t exactly aware
constantly exposing others’ flaws for purpose of mockery
constantly finding ways to prove that they are better than others
victims of their own hypocrisy
i am not putting anyone down
i know i am not better than anyone
and i know that no one is better than me
i’d bleed my flaws and weaknesses down on ink
but it’d be too much for paper alone to handle
do what you want to do, but at the end of the day
no one’s giant ego and pride is helping to solve any problems
mis-communication and silence in the aftermath will forever be the cause of our downfalls

sometimes, the only way out is another dead end

we spend our lives looking for something to live for
looking for a dream to chase and a path to walk
just so we dont have to follow the corporate road
and play it safe and end up like all the headfucked, lifeless adults we see now
but you’ll find out some day that
the system does not allow you to live your dreams
the system only allows you to lay down and play it safe
youth spent studying, and the rest of your life spent working
for something that you only have to come to terms with
but nothing gold comes without having you to put up a fight
i’ll always remain oblivious to those naysayers who told me to be realistic
and told me that i can never go far with what im doing and the way im living
how far do you want me to go?
sure, we all have responsibilities when we grow up
but responsibilities only come with what you choose to have
i have learnt so much
so much more from the hours i spent fucking around and wasting time
than what you’ve spent behind those textbooks
dont get me wrong, you can go ahead and spend your youth
always waiting for the holidays, always waiting for an escape
lay down, play dead, take it in the ass
because they’ve told you that if you listen, you’d have a good future
and i’d do things my way

acceptance may be a boring self

i wish i could paint
i wish i could draw
i wish i could sing well
i wish i could play the piano
i wish i could whistle
i wish i had an interest in reading
i wish i had a richer father
i wish i had a less annoying mother
i wish i was more athletic
i wish i was the guy in the movie that gets the girl
i wish i wasn’t the only person in this world who can hear me
i could type out all that i wish i was
and all that i’d probably never get to be
but at the end of the day, i still am who i am
and i still have what i have
i’ll try my best to appreciate
i’ll try my best to be content
i’ll try my best to be the person that i think i am

dropping hearts, loosing change

for every hope i lost today,
for every love that passed my way,
for all the nights i couldn’t sleep,
for every man i failed to be,
for every word i couldn’t speak,
for every heart i couldn’t keep,
for every dream i couldn’t live,
for every lie that i believed,

i’ll take back what i lost
i’ll take back what belongs
i’ll start all over again