the world has turned and left me here

fragile, please handle with care
i’ll never be good enough even if i tried.

“tell me there’s a logic out there leaving me to better prepare for the day that something really special might come.
tell me there is hope for me, i dont wanna be lonely for the rest of my days on the earth”

weezer is a good band, and that is a good song. cheers

24/10

so i’ve started going to school again, sae institute. few weeks back.
still waiting for my free macbook. yeah, school’s pretty fun
congratulations to joe for recently becoming a dad. MY BOY IS ALL GROWN UP!
2 more weeks to sabah, i could not be any less prepared
3 assignments due this monday, mix songs, record ruins n remains by then
practice and practice and more practice
no mood for anything
no mood
no mood
no m
no

dead end

its hard and i dont know what to do

everlasting

this world is not your stepping stone
this world only brings you down
everyone is just waiting to take a stab at you
before blaming your back for hurting their knife
give me a reason to cry
give me a reason to laugh
you cant
what is already is

remember we stand on the ground

im becoming what i promised myself never to be
i will not let my insecurity take over me
and destroy all that i love
suck it up and appreciate what i have
some things don’t happen everyday in life

sos

im tired
when you’ve been losing all your life, you just wont take the extra effort to fight for anything anymore
i just wanna sit down and take whatever shit that comes to me
and i hope i dont have to do it alone

31/8

yesterday,
i lost my wallet
i lost a very important letter
please be patient with me
im trying my very hardest
dont turn your back on me
its not helping

25/8

i had a horrible nightmare this morning
and i got woken up by falling off the bed
i don’t think the rest of the day is going to be any better

paranoia

the only things that really kill me are the things in my head
some thoughts im too afraid to speak of as words, even to the ones i love the most
because judgments and opinions change through time
and you dont want to be the victim, i dont want to be the victim
i wont ask for too much
nobody ever listens anyway
i’ll let time kill the doubt and silence

15/8

i dont really have time to do this shit anymore.
at least i dont have time to put up photos.
but luckily, im not much of a photo-taking person.
too busy living life, no time to write about it on wordpress.
currently doing recordings for ruins and remains, kill the dinklebergs! and if im not wrong, straight forward soon.
doing this more often makes me know myself abit better when it comes to recording and mixing
i am not good at all
but oh well, school is starting soon and not too long from now, i’ll be really good
everything has to be started from the bottom.
unless you have a plane.
i’ve been playing back-to-back shows almost every single week for the last 2-3 months
and it feels really good cos i have something to look forward to all the time
but there aren’t anymore upcoming shows after the one today so….
i’ll use to time to eat spaghetti